It’s something unpredictable
but in the end it’s right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
– Time of Your Life, Greenday
(I can’t play it yet)
I want to be a better person. I’m looking forward to my trip back home. I want to see my father and my sister. I want to be nicer to the people that are nice to me. The ones that matter.
I know not many a guy can relate to this, either that or they’d never admit it but I’m not a player. I don’t go out to clubs to meet women. Some people think this is a weakness, that every man desires to be a player. I don’t. I’m fine the way I am. Leave me be.
I’m being honest.
I don’t want a one night stand. I don’t want a relationship. I am fine alone for now. A relationship will present itself when I’m ready for one and even then it will be a choice between her and me.
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
– Famous Last Words, My Chemical Romance
I am happy to say that I’ve seen a few drops of success in my daily visits to the gym, as well as some sunshine when I play the guitar. Nothing of importance, but the glimmer of hope is a bit brighter.
There’s something to be said about posting anonymously. I derive great pleasure when strangers visit and I get feedback. It’s all been positive so I’m really surprised when it gets so many hits. Trivialities… I guess I love them. My dad and my sister have always been practical, which is the reason I have so much trouble conecting with them. I guess that’s why I’m often perceived as conceited and self-absorbed by other people.
Perhaps I am. My main quest is, and will always be to be happy.
Have the time of your life, everyone 🙂