my guitar

It’s something unpredictable
but in the end it’s right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

– Time of Your Life, Greenday

(I can’t play it yet)

I want to be a better person.  I’m looking forward to my trip back home.  I want to see my father and my sister.  I want to be nicer to the people that are nice to me. The ones that matter.

I know not many a guy can relate to this, either that or they’d never admit it but I’m not a player. I don’t go out to clubs to meet women.  Some people think this is a weakness, that every man desires to be a player. I don’t. I’m fine the way I am. Leave me be.

I’m being honest.

I don’t want a one night stand. I don’t want a relationship. I am fine alone for now. A relationship will present itself when I’m ready for one and even then it will be a choice between her and me.

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

– Famous Last Words, My Chemical Romance

I am happy to say that I’ve seen a few drops of success in my daily visits to the gym, as well as some sunshine when I play the guitar. Nothing of importance, but the glimmer of hope is a bit brighter.

There’s something to be said about posting anonymously. I derive great pleasure when strangers visit and I get feedback. It’s all been positive so I’m really surprised when it gets so many hits. Trivialities… I guess I love them.  My dad and my sister have always been practical, which is the reason I have so much trouble conecting with them.  I guess that’s why I’m often perceived as conceited and self-absorbed by other people.

Perhaps I am. My main quest is, and will always be to be happy.

Have the time of your life, everyone 🙂